dillema
So here i am in Singapore. Sipping my coke in my room and slowly thinking about my lousy shitty life in general, it's been a long time since i posted anything about myself. Counting the days, It's been like seven/eight months of me in Singapore? Yeah, so far life's good for me here, the pay's helping me to solve my life's problem most of the time easily. Buying things which i used to dream of due to the fact that i come from a very poor background. Hehe, despite all these, I'm sorry to say that i'm going back to Kuching for good in just a few days time, hell yeah. Yups, you're not hearing me wrong, It'll be another 10 more days of misery left for me to go before i end my contract with HP Singapore. The reason? It's simple, to perform my duty as a good son, sounds dope? Yeah, me dad has got two big hole in the heart this time. If it's a small holes it's easily operated by operating tubes which require just a small opening to make an incersion, kinda risk free. Me dad's case is different, the operation if full of challenges, let me chart out a simple procedure for the doctor's step:
1) stop body to a comma inducing state
2) cut front chest bones to allow access to heart
3) cut out the heart
4) mend it
5) put it back and reconnect the arteries & veins
6) bring back to life from the previous comma state
If all goes well after the operations, it will still be a hard job. Dad can't lift anything beyond 1/2kg due to the chest bones cut off during operation, it'll need some time to heal and at his age it'll be quite a long time i suppose. He'll most probably be wheelchaired for quite some time, as he isn't supposed to move around much anyway to allow maximum healing time. Then there's also the risk of infection, miscalculations of dosages, pills to be taken, mistakes and lots of other details. That's if the operation goes well, what if it doesn't..? That's the shitty part i wouln't wanna wander into.
Well surely you'll ask what if my dad were not to do the operation, would he still be ok? Yeah, he'll survive alright, but then he's gotta watch his diet carefully, not to perform heavy chores, not to be stress out, ample sleep bla bla bla and still risk cardiac arrest at times. Being him, i guess those of you who really know him shall know him really well.
Well most people see my action this time as another stupid, ignorant and a complete utter pile of bullshit. Most of the time, the general comments are like
1)You know you can earn much more in Singapore? Your pay will be like reduced to a quarter of what you're earning in Singapore le, can you take it?
2)You're taking the whole risk thing a bit too far, your dad's gonna be fine la.
3)There's no need to go back permanently, you can go back in the weekends right?
4)You're saying goodbye to your promising future here Jerry...
I don't deny that most of these are the people who are trying to look out for me, these kinda comments are comprimising my beleives. Well, what i'm trying to do is what i want to. No one forced me to, no one influenced me to and no one coerced me into it. It's like you see a blind man crossing the street, to help him or not it's your own decision to make, no one can make that choice for you. If you do help him, you're late for the meeting, if you don't you'll prob arrive at the meeting on time and feel bad once you've read the news about a blind man being hit while trying to cross the road. May god bless me this time around.
1) stop body to a comma inducing state
2) cut front chest bones to allow access to heart
3) cut out the heart
4) mend it
5) put it back and reconnect the arteries & veins
6) bring back to life from the previous comma state
If all goes well after the operations, it will still be a hard job. Dad can't lift anything beyond 1/2kg due to the chest bones cut off during operation, it'll need some time to heal and at his age it'll be quite a long time i suppose. He'll most probably be wheelchaired for quite some time, as he isn't supposed to move around much anyway to allow maximum healing time. Then there's also the risk of infection, miscalculations of dosages, pills to be taken, mistakes and lots of other details. That's if the operation goes well, what if it doesn't..? That's the shitty part i wouln't wanna wander into.
Well surely you'll ask what if my dad were not to do the operation, would he still be ok? Yeah, he'll survive alright, but then he's gotta watch his diet carefully, not to perform heavy chores, not to be stress out, ample sleep bla bla bla and still risk cardiac arrest at times. Being him, i guess those of you who really know him shall know him really well.
Well most people see my action this time as another stupid, ignorant and a complete utter pile of bullshit. Most of the time, the general comments are like
1)You know you can earn much more in Singapore? Your pay will be like reduced to a quarter of what you're earning in Singapore le, can you take it?
2)You're taking the whole risk thing a bit too far, your dad's gonna be fine la.
3)There's no need to go back permanently, you can go back in the weekends right?
4)You're saying goodbye to your promising future here Jerry...
I don't deny that most of these are the people who are trying to look out for me, these kinda comments are comprimising my beleives. Well, what i'm trying to do is what i want to. No one forced me to, no one influenced me to and no one coerced me into it. It's like you see a blind man crossing the street, to help him or not it's your own decision to make, no one can make that choice for you. If you do help him, you're late for the meeting, if you don't you'll prob arrive at the meeting on time and feel bad once you've read the news about a blind man being hit while trying to cross the road. May god bless me this time around.
posted by joseph han at 9:52 AM
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